Werewolf

Grab your silver knife and stab me

Go on and hurt me

Let me bleed and feel the pain

Maybe that's the only way

To know that I'm a woman

With a beating heart

Shoot me with everything you got

Burn me 'till it's hot

I will stand before you and cry

Maybe that's the only way

To know that I'm alive

And still breathing

Sometimes death is like illusion

And life is a little bit more than that

I felt hurt too much

And suddenly, I feel nothing, no more

Only blood and flesh

Who have I become?

Come on, throw me your bullets

and tell me, who have I become?

Dandelions

Coz I thought you were the one
I've always needed
I trusted you
But no, no, no...
Now, I don't think so

What I used to think about you
They fade like dandelions

It was nice to know you
You gave me memories
And opened the closed doors
I should thank you for that
But not more than that

And what I think about you now
I pity you
You and your own struggle
to win hearts like mine
I hope you would be lucky next time

I don't hate you
I won't
At least you made me understand
How to deal with disappointment
And I learned my lesson

December The First

The cold rain fall just like it always is

December the first

You were my best friend

The one I did depend

Even when I have to be your shadow

Drown with you in sorrow

It was you I would follow

The bond that nobody could understand

Not even myself

It was love

Not that kind of lust

But I knew it was more than that

And when we slept next to each other

Talking about nothing all night

Crying, laughing, and dreaming

That's our green days

When we were young

Many Decembers past between us

And we took different path

that brought us apart

Then things change so fast

I am not who I used to be

So were you

That bond, strong as the mountain

Yet as fragile as the broken heart

Oh, December the first

I can't see you in your white

For I need to find my blue

We both has drown in different seas

But the wind will send my love to you

One that you have long forgotten

The last piece that has not yet broken

For nothing left in you I want

But your happy ending

Start at this December the first

Ghost

I run to the edge only to find
that you're still here

Under the sun, under the rain

I feel your presence when you're gone

Though your heart never lies in mine

The feeling my words can't express

The tears my eyes can't cry

They turned you into a ghost

You haunt me with love I can't feel

with anybody else

You haunt me with love you can't return

Why can't I simply turn away from you?

I run miles only to find

I'm changing myself into a ghost

To be with you

Until forever ends

Perfect (Old Song on the Radio)

It's just another day when I heard an old song on the radio

The song that I used to sing when I remember you

Suddenly my perfect life is gone

I live my life without you and I'm doing fine

I thought you were only yesterday

But the old song on the radio reminds me of you

The days when I knew how hurt love could be

I can't decide what is in my heart

I think you and your happy life is perfect enough

Without me

But sometimes I wonder if you remember me

If you think of me

Oh, perfect life seems like a mask on my face

It's never been real me

I still cry, I still ask, "why?"

And it still hurts, too

Maybe it will be easier for me if I had never known you at all

But love has been too cruel

Old song on the radio dissolving into my mind

And the tears I haven't cried for a while

Your name has been long buried deep inside me

But it's still there

The old song is like rain, wash away everything

And there I find you again

With a perfect life I've never had

I Feel Fine

I'm in paradise

and I feel fine

I hurt my feet

And my hands

Ugly

But now, I feel fine

No one will hear me

Singing

Screaming

Swearing

Crying

Praying

But God

And I feel fine

I'm leaping outside the box

The walls that once protected me

But then trapped me

Now I'm breathing again

I'm in paradise

and I feel fine

Psychopath

I hit the walls until my hand bleeds
Never heal the pain
Am I psychopath?

The whole world's turning against me
It's only me and my cracking heart
Screaming for the freedom I've never found

Why can't I just be gone and disappear
They never really want me anyway
They have refused to understand me

Or,
was it me who refused to see who I've been?

I break hearts, I swear words
Never chill my soul
And the hell burning inside it

I'm dissolved into rage
The storm that never left my head
Anger that made me a living undead

Why can't see what people see
And love the way the do
Why can't I be like them?

Psychopath
Is that who I am?

Electric Heart

Don't love me now if you will only leave me later
It'd only hurt me forever

In every step you take
I'm manually in love with you

If you want me
Install me an electric heart
With an on-and-off button
To forget you when I need to

If you insist, I can't resist
You have those melting eyes I can't ignore

I know your promises
Only as fragile as my heart on your hands

You have killed me many times
With your touch, your smile, and your lies
So put me an electric heart
My only chance to survive in your love

Miles

I've walked miles
To find something I lost
When I met you

There are things I can let go
But not this one

I will walk another mile
And another one after that
I won't stop until I know it's there

Whatever you say
I won't stop until I find what should be mine

My shoes will break
My feet will bleed
But my heart stays still

I will walk, I will crawl
Whatever it takes to get me there

I will walk thousand miles
To find something I lost
Even if it means I have to lose you

Afternoon Rain

Afternoon rain
The loneliness creeping in the air

On the piano where I sing my song
The melodies you never give a shit
I hear the sound of the rain
There's my heart truly lies

When the last drop of the rain
fall upon us
It could be the end of us
And we will be history

Afternoon rain, a life time pain
You are once my only one

On the piano where I sing my song
I remember walking under your umbrella
But the same rain would never fall again
Only memories remain

Tears of Nights

Every night, every time the sun goes behind the roofs
I cry

On the bed where I lay, I feel it on my pillow
Tears I can't make into words

Every time I saw your back
I know that you don't love me anymore

And maybe,
I've stopped feeling it too

I would have told you
How much I miss your hugs
How insecure I've been
How painful it is for me

But all I that can say is,
"I'm sleepy"

Your heart is no longer here
on our bed
As mine has flown to the sea
Where you can't reach me

And all that you ask is,
"What do you want?"

Nothing, for sure
Or maybe, just one last tearful night
Because tomorrow has long gone
For you and me

Before the Mirror

Who is that?
Starring back at me
Eyes with no spark
Flesh with no soul
How could I live with that?

Like a rotten apple
I recall the long lost glorious days
The girl I used to know
She's not there anymore
before the mirror

No! I can't lose myself
With every pride left in me
I can't let myself die
With wrinkles and helpless tears
I will live forever

I will not give up
Until a queen I've become
And those who hurt me
They will see my back with envy
I will bloom once again

Greenless Marble

We live in the jungle of buildings
Where people worship money
They sacrifice love and trust
And sometimes, humanity
We live in a heartless city

We live in a machine civilization
and become numbers in statistic
We make human which are not
And love them more than to those
we're supposed to love

We live in the jaw of guillotines
We live without mercy
And a lost dream people no longer see
But maybe, somewhere in the corner
Some still hold on to it

Dear God, we live in jeopardy
We live in dyeing society
Our soul have long gone with the trees
And now we trapped in a greenless marble
Broken for things we could never undo